Ecstasy!

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Together we move slowly.
I'll never leave you lonely.
If you would be my only one.

I'm craving on stupid dead wishes that will never come true.
I'm thinking too much about you.
It's so hard to forget,
cause of the everything you've done.
If I could turn back time,
I'll go back to the day when I'm with you.
Why won't you come to me?
Why did you choose to do this?
Do I exist in you?
I can't feel the love anymore.
I really wanna know all this, or it's just I'm thinking too much?
The way you talk, the way you laugh.
I miss all the times we had.
Chatting on the phone, going out together, watching movies..
Secret " :P ", I really miss you alot.
When will you be calling me again....?
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Super hot eye-candy today.
But doesn't melt my heart.
Ohwell!.
Why should I be here?!
Damn me.
Oh anyway,
Double Fuck to Animal Abuser/Killer or whatever shit.
Just because they wanna get Seal's fur?
Oh Fuck.
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HELL MOTHERFUCKERS!

Jacky. ت says:
GO ASK BANGALA FUCK THE GOVERNMENT LAH CB NOOB.
Jacky. ت says:
DIG OUT HIS BALLS AND MAKE HIM EAT IT MOTHER FUCKING CB KIA

Bestfriend got so angry after watching.
Poor baby seals:(!

Off to study!

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I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it all away.

First and for most, Happy Birthday dearest HuiWen XiaoMei;]
Stay pretty always!:D
I'll be free on 10th Oct, I promise[:!

My day started out really bad. How should I say this?
Maybe I feel tired after taking the flu medicine.
Or maybe my form teacher screw me up.
Yes she did, totally.
She changed my place & I'm totally far apart from my Nuer, Steady, Boyfriend& my dearest Kimmy mei. :(
That means we will be having lesser time to laugh already.
Forget it, since EOY is coming. I'll mug hard & have fun after EOY.
Bestie, I can assure that I'll be spending more time with you after EOY.
Okay, today after school. Zeeeean, Yacky, JiaZun& I went to Cwp.
Shopped around the pasamalam, looking for Boyfriend's bag:D
Then we went to basment. I bought takoyaki& Jacky bought Apple Pie.
We can't find any place to sit down & eat.
So the genius (me) sat under the things that take photo of you& draw you with pencil.
I don't know whats that uh.Hahs.
Thn we went to walk around, after that Boyfriend went to meet the others.
ZiAn left. Jacky& I went to Civic's mac & did Science worksheet and Maths homework.
He had 2 cups of McFlurry-.-! & we took reflections:D loves♥
Then after that, was about to go & Ashley called.
She's hell cute, she asked Jacky to turn left right walk here and there.
& She ran towards us. :D Then went into BK, Huiwen, Esther, XiaoEn & Caleb is in there too.
Then we chatted awhile then Jacky & I went off.
Went to Vista, bought newspaper & went home.
Just came back from Marsiling, had KFC for dinner. Ewwwww!;(
I only ate salad-.-
Yayyyy ! Mom & I are going to hold lanterns later on!:]♥
Alright, off to hold lanterns!

My last post for this & next week. Unless I've something nice to blog. If not I'll be away for 2weeks or more. I'm going to mug hard already[:
& I also hope I can get to see him next weeeeeeek!
Bye.:)

I miss Mister Moo.
& your gong-est face:/

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There's like only 21 post in my blog only? Lol.
I wanna be in school for a week.
I've been skipping school lately. EOY is coming alrdyyy :l
& I skipped school today -.-
Friday :
Went to school,
there's no Chapel. Went to CWP after school.
Took neoprints with Nuer, Boyfriend& Steady(:
Turn out great? But our pose are all the same:/
Waited for Alvin Yong & LiuJie to arrive.
My Mom& Boyfriend went to eat.
We went to C's 6th floor, the guard call us to go off.
Then went to Mac & studied awhile.
MCFLURRY♥!:D
Then went home around 4+.
Saturday :
Went to CWP with Mommy.
Meet Elgene&Jacky at 6. They had their dinner. Bought candles&bla.
Waited for Esther to arrive. Played all the way till 9+.
Thanks Elgene for accompany me walking around with lanterns :D
Went 515 to had my late dinner. Jacky & Elgene ate again-.-!
Reached home around 11. :]
Went out during midnight to find Weiny,
Chatted with her all the way till 2.40+.
Fell dead asleep after reaching home.
Sunday:
Woke up around 11+? Went to Orchard to have lunch at my favourite restuant again[:!
A great lunch with my family indeed.
Went to IMM after lunch, walked around & bought hair stuff.
Really cute hairbands:}
Thanks Mommy.
& My mom is getting me the bag I want:D!
Went back home around 5+.
7+ went to meet Jacky. Went to Vista Park again.
Waited for Alvin, and we went to play again.
Oh my Mommy went along too:D
Saw Jx. & the malay guy! yesss him! I don't know his name-.-
Then went to Vista around 9+ to have our dinner.
Went back around 10+, slept around 1+ watching Tv.

I'll mug very hard for EOY.
I willlllllllll!
-I'm sorry plastic..:(

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Keep me safe inside.
Your arms like towers,
tower over me.

So much stuff is happening.
Happen just so quickly without telling us.:/
Uh, :(
and I finally understand why is it not worth crying for so long already.
At least it's not too late to regret? I'm still me! :)

Kimmy my dear little sister,
I know how you feel when people make fun of you,
you are still yourself.
you don't really have to care what they do to make you upset.
Don't ever blame yourself for being this way, you don't want it either.
My advice to you are a little harsh.
Cause it's hurt to see my sister to be like this :(
No matter what, stay strong.
Panda will be there to save you! :D
Smile always.
Hugggggs[:

Okayyyy, I'm a little racist after the incident.. :/
Wednesday, went to school. Stuff happened. :(
Felt so sorry for Kimmy, but I hope my little Panda brighten up her day! [:
Home Econ period sucks:/
Fight with the malay girls.
They're noisy. They blamed us when the teacher scolded them.
After school went o have lunch at Vista with Jacky & JJ.
Then sent JJ back, both of us went to Causeway.
Then crapped around & cabbed back to Fragant.
Wanted to go to the RC & study but too much people were there.
So we didn't went there, went home around 5+.
Today, My gao-xiao de Steady & sweetest Boyfriend didn't came today. :(
Took photos during Science lesson. Lollll!
Alvin & the others were damn funny :/
Mr Chow didn't came to school. & a male malay teacher came in.
& He told us ghost stories he encountered.
Didn't pay attention to his stories at all.
Recess, went to the Library & the bell rang. We didn't heard the bell at all.
Mr Baba scolded us for being late & stood infront of the whole sec1&sec2.
What the fuck, super duper uber paiseh.
CPA lesson, freezing like mad.
:/
Went to cwp & meet up Mom. Had KFC.
Saw Nuer !:D
Then went home.
Lalalala.
Yayyy, I'm going out with JieYing tomorrow! Happppppy:D:D

Alrighty, off to watch TV.

Why are you doing so much for me when you know it's not worth it at all?
I really thank you for being so great to me.
It's great to be your friend. [:

You're such a mess in my life, so you never cared at all. I'm finally awake. I'm not important to you at all. It's not too late.

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Ahhh, I can only get back my handphone on 16th Oct :(
So cool uh?
Didn't went to school today cuz' Mom & I have to go and pray my Grandfather.
JY & the others skipped school too:/
Saturday, woke up around 9am & went out with Brother.
Meet up with WG kor & took train down to DG.
WG went to meet his girlfriend & we went bunk to find Bro's friend.
We sat there for 30minutes to see Bro's friend Zk-ing.
WG's gf is angry and he asked me to ask his gf to talk to him.
I went out and ask his gf nicely to go into bunk. I didn't OI her or anything.
I said, Peiqi. WG ask you to go in. She didn't even look at me or answer me.
Wtf, so I talk to her again and she said " bu yao lah! " to me.
I walked off after that, then after bunk. Went to PS to have KFC.
WG's gf walked here & there, the 3 of us were hungry and she don't want to sit down.
I got very pissed , then I went off back to Woodlands.
Didn't join them for movie. Then took 900 to Vista to meet Mom for lunch.
Went home to change & went to meet Bestie under my block.
Took bus to Causeway to meet up with Esther.
Studied less than 1hour &went to mac for lunch.
Laughed like mad there, went home around 6+.
Nothing much happened on Sunday,
Monday went to school. MT teacher tested me my chinese spelling. :/
Had Dental check-up during Recess, Huitian & I are really afraid.
Lolll. & I'm the first one, don't need to come back for any checkup alrdy.
Mom wants me to put on braces! :(
After school Bestie & Jj came to my house.
Had loads of fun again:D
Then they went off around 7.

Randoms/

The stuff that Joshua did this year.

LMAO:D

Cutest bear on earth.

I know it's time to let go,
since I'm not important to you.
You didn't even bother to ask what happen to me.......... :(

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Lifeless.

@#@*$&@&!@(*!#)@*@^&@#.
Dad confiscated my handphone.
I'm going crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy soon.
VERY SOON.
I hate my parents for being so unreasonable at times.

I WANT MY HANDPHONE BACK.
MOTHERFUCKERRRRRRR LAHHHHH.
FUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCK every single shit in life.

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Any Moooooo?

Random ~

Hi [:
I'm very bored now :l
Didn't attend school today. Overslept.
Shouldn't talk much bout it.
Tuesday, Went to CWP with the girls & had Mos, meet up with Elgene after that with Bestie.

Oh, when the 3 of us are crossing the road, an old man open his window & scolded us. Walk faster lah cb. Omg-.- Reached home around 6.
Wednesday, School's great. Had a fun time talking with my girls. Bestie & Nuer came to my house after school. We pranked people again :l, & they left around 7. :D
Thursday, Left school during recess. Had stomach cramp& gastric. Went to Grandma's house. Slept at her house for awhile & she made some noodles for me. Left her house around 1+ & went to meet Bestie & Zi An. Then went to study under my block. Reached home around 4+.

Oh, I failed my Maths:/

& I passed my Chinese! Coooool :D

I need help with maths! AHHHH.

It's getting deeper& deeper......

way down. ahhhh :(

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End

I don't wanna live anymore. I really don't.
Whats wrong with me man?
I can't tolerate myself any longer.
I really hate myself for being such a bitch.
This time, my Mom is really really angry with me.
And I'm going to say Goodbye to my handphone soon.
& Mom says she don't want me as her daughter anymore...............................
What can I do without a nice Mom?
I'm the one to blame. I should have cherish everything before it's too late.

Fuck that old man who scolded me, Elgene & Jacky.

Life is so bitch,
& its getting more & more chaotic each day,
So why should I exist ?

I'm seriously the motherfuckinglousyassholebitch that everyone hates.

I can't do without my Mom & Handphone :'(.....
What should I dooooooooo.

P.S : Thanks Elgene & Jacky to accompany me the whole day.

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Horrible

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

Hello.
Sunday is also another boring day.
Went out with family to United Square to have our buffet.
Yes, it's very expensive. :/
Paid 50$ for the lunch. Evening went to Marsiling & bought skinnies.
Then went back home.
Oh, I saw 2 crazy people yesterday.
The first one I think he's taking drug or something, he kept shouting and ended up lying down on the floor with so many pairs of eye staring at him.
The second one is at Civic, this guy(40++) walked pass me& my Mom.
He started scolding lots & lots of @#$%&#@@#@%.
& he shouted so loudly. -.-
School reopened,
and I will mug really hard for EOY exams.
Hopefully, I'll pass my maths.
Maths is seriously driving me crazy.
and so much things are going on now,
Mdm Yap will be away for 2weeks.
& the relief teacher seriously sucks.
I wanted to ask him question and he kept asking me to wait.
Very very tired in class. Just feel like sleeping.
and ha-ha, our timetable changed. Tuesday ends at 12.15pm.
Heh:D
Going to Lot1 tomorrow with LiWen & JiaJun.
Alrighty.
I feel so sleepy now.
How I wish I could sleep until I wish to wake~

Will you ever let me fall ?

MATHHHHHHHS! :(

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Why?

Why am I making things difficult for myself?
Why am I making things worst?
Why am I thinking so much when others don't give a fuck at all?
Why must things be in this way?
Why must problems come in at this time?
Why must people say they care when they don't?

If you really care for me, then prove it.

Okay,
From this minute onwards after I've published this post..
I must be happy.
I must smile like this :D.
I must think of the positive things.
I must not think about anything that will affect my mood.
I must look in front only.

Thank - you Gatsper [:
You saved me again.

Cheers.

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Turn it up

Hoy people [:

I'm very bored.

Hah,

I've watched News & read newspaper the past few days.
Oh last week,

My brother told me he saw a piece of news in the newspaper saying that a 19years old guy killed a 40+ man and he dug out his organs & ate them.

DISGUSTING.

-.-

& I've been eating Ice-Cream this few days.

Ahhh. I'm going to grow -.-"

Found this really cool picture on Worth1000.com,

It's actually photoshopped. But it don't look like one D:

Bored :l

Okay, school's gonna reopen soon.

Hello again my Sotongs& Pigs !

I miss them so much[:

Hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

I'm very full. Lmao.

Bye-bye.

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No more tears

My desktop broke down again :(
That means I've to use laptop until Dad is willing to fix my computer.
Laptop sucks seriously.
I'm hell boring.
Rotted at home yesterday.
Slept around 3, chatting with Elgene.
I really think that we've alot of things to talk about.
Once we said Hello, and we'll never stop talking. Heh:D
Today?
Woke up around 10plus by Wein's message -.-
Meet her at Causeway & had lunch.
Then reached home around 4+?
Boring, boring, boring.
My mum hasn't been talking to me much :/
and I hope she's free tomorrow.
Then we can go out together:D

I'm still sick. Grrrrrrrrr.!

I Love Ahem Ahem.
Yes yes ! I really Love ahemahem:D
WEEEE.

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Weeeeeee-ness.

Hello world!D:

I think my mood has got better (:

,I hope so.

I told everything to Gatsper.

He's indeed a great listener. Thanks:D!~

Woke up early because of the drilling sound.

So noisy lah :/

Sunday :

Woke up around 10 +, had a really big fight with Mom.

Cause of my handphone, Saturday mid-night someone called me & I forgotten to off my phone.

Then in the end she returned me.

Went to Novena and wanted to have the Buffet there.

there's no seat for us .

Went to some foodcourt & had lunch.

Went back home after that. & I fell asleep.

From 2 - 6?

Went out around 6 to somewhere near Orchard,

went to have dinner at my favourite restuant:D

Saw my cousins there too.

After dinner, went back home & it's already 9+:D

Then chatted on the phone with Elgene from 1 - 3 am ?

& chatted with someone till 6.

Tired tired tired!

Monday :

Woke up around 8am ?

Only had about 2 hours of sleep.

Lalala, Dad drove Kor, Mom & I to cwp.

Had Big Breadfast. (:

Then took train down to . . .

I forgotten where T.T!

Then went to NUH (:

Checked my leg.

& I still can't remove the fucking screw inside my leg-.-

Then went to IMM to have Aijtei

I loveeeeee Unagi:D

Then went to cousin house & slept for 2 hours.

And went home.

Reached home around 6+ and watched TV & slept around 12.

Tuesday:

Woke up arund 9:30 by Twinkle's sms.

& prepared and meet up with Jx, Twinkle & Evon @ 12.30+

Trained down to Vivo.

Waited for the 23 people to arrive.

& we cab down to Sentosa.

Then we splitted up.

We alighted at Palawan beach thanks to me.

& we walked from Palawan to Siloso .

Bought drinks at 7-11 while walking there.

Saw Jinhui ! Omg;D

Then FINALLY ! We reached Siloso :D

Played there and sat down there to watch people play.

Then went to rent bike.

At first I'm feeling damn unhappy cause of ~~~~

In the end, the 3 of them ride me around:D

Evon was the first.

Twinkle's the second.

Jx's the third.

COOOOL!

& my butt hurts alot -.-

The thing buaaaaa my leg until damn red.

Lolllls.

Now my whole body is aching. :/

Then we left and went to take the Skyride & the Luge

I swear I'm going to play the Luge again when I go there.

At first I'm really scared cause I don't wanna ride the thing.

Twinkle say that I'm gonna love it once I finish playing.

INDEED MAN:D

Its so coool! I'm very addicted to it alr. LOL.

Skyride was rather scary. We were all talking bout,

WHAT IT THE THING DROP AND WE ALL DROP?

Then everyone look down. LOL

My hand is sweating when the thing is going up.

It's really very scary.

& we can see Siloso beach from there. It's beautiful:D

Then we went down to play the Luge !

YAY ! So cooool! Banged on Twinkle once.

Too happy already.

Then I didn't know it ended so quickly..... :(

Took the Sentosa train back to Vivo.

Then train-ed back to Causeway.

Jx went to meet his Mom for dinner.

Me, Evon & twinkle went to Sakae for dinner.

Twinkle treated us. :D

& he said this , Wa. You all so skinny. Didn't know that you all can eat so much?

Lols,

Then there's this waiter walked to our table.

Waiter : can I clear your empty bottles ?

Me : Cannot.

Waiter : Smiled & walked away.

I really didn't know that he's talking bout the empty bottles.

I thought he's talking bout the plates.

Then Twinkle hitted me cause I laughed to loud.

& Evon kept laughing:D

Twinkle then sent me home,

reached home around 10 + & fell asleep.

YAY ! I really enjoyed my day!

The 4 of us planned to go together again.

YAYYY!:D

NICE?:D

Finally, a photo of the 4 of us!

The lady beside JX ruined our picture. -.-

Shirley, why did you scold Liwen a cb asshole?

I'm not blamming you but just asking you.

& please !

I beg you people. Don't talk about going out together ANYMORE.

Fuck, I thought I was able to go out with you guys.

NOW?

Everyone is soooo busy.

SO I'm the one to blame lah.

You guys say that I don't have time for you.

Whatever :/

When are you going to ask me again ?

I'm waiting......

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Random pictures. (:
I'm very, very, very bored.
Ohhhh ! I dyed my hair.
Shared 1 bottle with 5 people.
Lauuuughs.
Its not very obvious anyway :/

Sentosa with my Sotongs & Pigs this Thursday.
AHHH ! Can't wait:D
Loves.